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Life is God’s Video Game!

Part 1.

March 24, 2015

One question that I get over and over again is “Why did God make this creation with all its difficulties and sorrows?”  So, after decades of observing and listening to Soul in myself and others, here is my imperfect answer.

So, let’s start at the beginning!

First of all, there is nothing that is not God, or as Yogi Bhajan used to call It all the time—the Generating, Organizing and Destroying force.  “If you can’t see G.O.D. in all, then you can’t see God at all.”  Remember that?

As you know, God is the All in All that is beyond time and space, and is the Source of all Creation.  That means that when you come down to it, time and space is an illusion!  Yep, an illusion, but showing up within these limitations.  What we see as this everyday reality is actually a manifestation of the Eternal Present which is Infinity.  And what we so easily call God is actually that Infinite Consciousness that is All.  Although our limited minds can’t really grasp that, if you go deep into meditation, you can actually get a whiff of that most amazing and expansive experience! 

To me, this notion of the Eternal Present explains how we can re-experience incidents in our past lives so vividly and heal them in a past-life regression.  Our experiences appear to be malleable and stored as energy—rather like digitized DVDs.  Recently I learned that Yogi Bhajan taught that our personal Akashic Records are stored in a kind of energetic bubble under our feet.  Amazing, eh?

The point is that we are all actually the same Infinite God in so many various disguises that are operative in this limited time and space illusion that seems so very, very real!  So, the best analogy that I can come up with is that we are God’s video game.  Yes, that’s the best that I can come up with.  So, perhaps God just got bored and needed some drama—that’s us!  But just look at it.  In a video game, the player creates their “Avatar” and maneuvers him or her through certain challenges of the interactive video game.

So, we appear to be God’s Avatars.  God, our Real Self, our creator is the actual player, the very real consciousness that moves us.  Each of us is God’s Avatar through this game of lifetimes.  Now to create this Avatar here on Earth, we first have the illusion of leaving the Infinite Consciousness with the absolute experience of pure love in order to believe that we are actually separate, that somehow we are disconnected from Who we actually have been.  I call this Original Separation, and when folks on the healing table experience this, it is the most painful experience imaginable!  As far as I can see, this apparent separation is the base of ALL the pain and suffering that we experience in all of our lifetimes. 

This separation from full experience as the Infinite is where our hurts and horrors come from.  But it is all a setup. 

The “Original Player,” our God Self has set up the game so that we, the Avatar has free will and the ability to learn built in, just as do our most current and sophisticated video games.  Now the actual object of this Game of Lifetimes is to play the game so well that we finally get back to that most Original Union where we totally KNOW and Experience that we are actually the Original Player, the God, the Creator itself and not just Its separate projection as an Avatar. 

That Union is what it means to finally win the Game of Lifetimes!  The excruciating pain of separation is finally over and we re-experience Who we really are, which is the Totality of ALL, the very Real Infinite Consciousness, which is pure and Infinite connection and total coziness.  Nothing, no one or anything is beyond you because you experience no limits.  You intrinsically KNOW that you are All Unbounded Love, Kindness, Power, Knowledge, Creative ability, purity, humility and so on.  You fully see the Truth of this limited arena but are not sucked into it anymore, although you can still operate perfectly in it.  I have heard that saints who reach this Awareness have an enormous laugh at this big joke when they see the whole set up for what it is!

This is Union they say is an indescribable state of calm, expansive, coziness and love.  And so, that is what we seek on this return trip to our real HOME!  That is why as Avatars we get an inkling of this trip Home and we are drawn to live this Yogic path--Yoga meaning “Union”.  And this is also why Yogi Bhajan taught that the spiritual path is one of changing our identity from believing that we are limited to realize our True Identity or “Sat Nam” as the Infinite Player, the actual Creator Being—Ek Ong Kaar!


This Game of Lifetimes is actually very minutely constructed according to a set of amazingly organized rules called our “karmas.”  We experience these as the circumstances of our life that we are faced with lifetime after lifetime.  So, it is God or our Soul, our Infinite Wisdom, our True Self that initiates that whole string of challenges through lifetimes for us, the Avatar to play.

Then to create the specific course of our personal Game within these “rules” over lifetimes, our essential Self, Soul sets it up so that first we are the perpetrator of some nastiness, then we are the victim of this same kind of difficulty, which finally drives us to the point that we are absolutely ready to give up that whole thread of repeating cause and effect.

As we play our karmas—both the ones that we like and the ones that we don’t, our free-will responses and actions either resolve or neutralize the energetically-based “virtual reality” of each trial or our response complicates it even more.  So, our play—whatever it is sets up our next course of challenges.   This is how we as Avatars actually create the challenges of our own lives. 

Each challenge, no matter how difficult or easy is actually an opportunity for advancement to return to Union if played well.  If we avoid these opportunities either consciously or unconsciously, we just remain a victim and are faced with the same test in different situations until we finally remedy or heal our habitual reactions.  The choice is ours—it is the choice of the Avatar’s free will to heal or not.

So that turning-point in changing our karmic patterns is called “transformation” or healing.  It is where we actually shatter the energetic holding patterns of each of those difficult experiences.  When triggered, they keep us feeling like the forlorn and forgotten victim, or the perpetual perp of anger, abuse, etc.  When these habitual energetic mechanisms of “virtual reality” are neutralized or shattered, what remains are the freed-up tiny “bits” of all this information from having been both the perp and the victim.  But they are re-arranged by Soul into new accessible patterns that support our progress and happiness, and which is not dependent on circumstances.  Rather it taps into the very real experience of Soul’s clarity and Love.

Now, this new, integrated information bank of reorganized bits of all these experiences is called “wisdom” from which we can draw at will.  We are no longer lost in those similar painful situations, but rather a deep knowing guides us to the best outcome, which of course is Union, love, peace, calm and personal power.  And we may find that we have developed new skills and abilities such as being able to help, lead or heal others faced with those same challenges.  A healed Avatar can actually help other Avatars through this amazing Game of Lifetimes in that same category that they have healed from!  After all, we all have the same Source, which is the Real Player, and Who is apparently “behind the scenes” operating all these Avatars.




Part 2.

March 31, 2015 

So, as you have seen, it is up to us, the Avatar to change our limited time and space consciousness that is hemmed in by believing what our conditioning and senses tell us!  We do that by giving up and neutralizing the energetic mechanisms of those old belief and emotional repeating patterns.  And that is the “battle” to create these freeing transformations.  That is how we win our next level of access to Soul and collect the Wisdom and Abilities that I call the Gems and the Jewels that are formed in this whole process.  Remember that Yogi Bhajan said that a diamond is a lump of coal that has been under extreme pressure and heat for a very long time.  This is that process!  So, you see there is real purpose in this whole karmic cycle of going Home.

Here at the steps to Win each challenge!

1.       Remember “Let Go and Let God”?  This is no platitude!  This is the Truth!  You have heard of Surrender.  This is it.  Most humbly and deeply give the whole conflict to God, or Soul or the Original Game Player Who is the real expert.  Consciously, meditatively let that repeating stuck energy go back to God for recycling.  That is how you win, by truly giving up your harness of enslavement to those painful and limiting habits of your consciousness’ beliefs and emotions.  This is not irresponsible, but rather the MOST responsible thing you could ever do!  And it takes real humility to do it.  No hanging onto self-righteousness, blaming, hurt, personal glory, etc.


2.       Forgive your perpetrators, your experiences of fear and pain, as well as yourself even at your earliest ages for believing those untruths imposed from your cultural conditioning or the pain that apparently was inflicted at such a young age.  What else was a little child going to believe?  That was part of the karmic set up.


Do this deep forgiving from your deep meditative level—not from your mind, which does not work for this because your mind remains superficial and not really in touch with this energetic Trance at this very deep creative level.   And when we forgive, we are not saying that what happened was OK, but we are leaving any “justice” up to the perpetrator’s own karmic path, unless of course we need to call the police, etc. to stop their continuing to spread their hurt and pain to others, such as with physical or sexual abuse.  This is how we, Soul’s Avatar “wins” or heals through these situations or karmic “opportunities”. 


And most importantly forgive yourself for your part in all those most difficult experiences from all sides.  That is from being the perp so far back in your history of lifetimes to the present, and also forgive yourself from believing that you are the victim of these events, even if you were a tiny child when they happened.   As you do this incredible forgiving, you are actually dissolving the holding patterns of those old hurts so that you don’ have to experience them again! 


Then realize that this whole string of karmic events is actually built so that we have the opportunity for this particular transformation, freedom and growth!  Yikes!  Imagine the implications of this process.  Celebrate it!


3.       Use every help that you can get to support you and to propel you to win every challenge on this amazing Hero’s Journey.  These powerful helps are such things as Kundalini Yoga, Mantra, Meditation, Banis, disciplined thinking and awareness, profound teachings, etc. that actually support us to reformulate our energies, our consciousness, our Self-love and our habits to break that thread or spell of karmic progression. 


4.       I find that the very biggest help is actually cozying up to my Soul, my True God Self to coach me on how to play each challenge that is now in my face!  This is such a great way to actually get the very best instructions and very real support from the Real Player behind the whole Game. This is the One Who sees all the chess moves from every direction and is actually rooting for me to come to final Union where I truly know and experiencing Who I am.  And of course, every “win” brings me closer to my goal of moving out of this separation to experience the powerful Love that Soul can pour through me.

You may think that it is a bit like cheating to get the best “moves” from the Creator of the Game, but there is no better Source!  And since I am actually looking for true Union with the Creator of this Game, then building and deepening this very real relationship with Soul over time, especially in tough times as well as easy ones is really important to the process, wouldn’t you say?

5.       Don’t be afraid or too insecure to change!  Remember, you are consciously changing your identity.  So, as you change, you won’t actually know who you will become.  So, don’t let moving into the Unknown scare you.  Just Trust that Soul has it all covered in this great adventure, and you will get to know the new aspects of you—the game Avatar shortly.


6.       When we heal or transform our reactions with gratitude for the opportunities, we neutralize that Virtual Reality configuration so that we can open more clearly to what we call the Light.  It is like washing our (the Avatar’s) windows to get a better glimpse and experience of Who is really playing this game of Life through us—our God Self, which paradoxically is the Real Us!  That is when we can connect to our True Infinite Reality that is everything and everyone, and thereby experience the calm, the peace, the awareness, the love from our Source, the True Player.

Yogi Bhajan says, "My life is my life, which is given to me as a gift and I must process myself.  Nothing should bother me."   

This “nothing should bother me” comes from the process of continual transformation or “winning” at this Video Game of LIFE!  That is when the Avatar totally realizes that it is the actual Player and Creator of this whole Game and plays it for everything that it is worth—and that is Infinity!


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KARMA--The Reader's Digest Explanation

July 20, 2010 

Re-published April 30, 2013

So many people ask me, “So why do I have to go through all this pain and suffering?  Is God or Soul just playing some kind of cruel joke on me?” 

So, I made a study of this, asking Soul what the heck is going on here!  These are the answers that I was given.  And they bear out every time I do a Soul-level healing with folks.


As you know, simply put the Law of Karma says that whatever you do will come back to you.  So, if we do something to or for someone, we will be the recipients that exact same situation at a future time.

Here is a description that the saint, Bhai Sahib Randir Singh gave of his karma:  In a previous lifetime, as a boy he came across a man who was extremely emaciated, his body was rigid, and he appeared to be unconscious.  Randir Singh desperately wanted to revive this fellow, so in his fervor he broke the fellow’s tooth, put a tube down his throat and poured nourishment into his body.

In fact, it turned out that the comatose fellow was actually using his yogic powers to get to a state in which he would be able to steal Randhir Singh’s father’s wealth.  Needless to say, that guy was less than appreciative when he was revived!

In this consequent lifetime, that thief with the yogic powers came back as the most despicable jailer of Bhai Randhir Singh who was an extremely righteous Sikh and political prisoner in the early resistance against corrupt British rule over India.  So, in this life, because Randhir Singh would not eat anything that did not conform to his dietary laws, the jailer actually had Randhir Singh’s tooth broken so that his men could insert a tube down Randhir Singh’s throat and pour meat broth into his stomach.*

Apparently there are many threads of karma, in addition to the obvious one explained here that are woven into this incident, which gives it extremely unique complexities.  But that is how the “fabric of life” is created.


Now, can you believe that there is no such thing as “good karma” or “bad karma”?  That is just the mind, or our “everyday self”—which is what I call our ego, the habits of our shortsighted mind, our subconscious, the dictates of our culture, and so on, making a judgment on the situations that arise in our lives.  We base our judgments on whether we like the situations that appear or we hate them.

Needless to say, this matching up and interweaving of karmas in a life time is such an extremely complex situation!  In fact, it is our own beloved Souls, our God Selves who pull together which karmas we will experience!  Oh, yes!  Such things as where we will be born, who our parents are, what things “happen” to us, etc.

To be very simple about it all, it seems that before we come into a life, Soul sort of spreads all of our karmas out before It like playing cards—no matter whether we would call those karmas good, bad or indifferent.  Then it pulls specific ones from that pile, sort of like consciously choosing your card hand before the game starts, and then creates a time order to them.  Then our Soul comes into our body and everyday self to actually play that card hand, which is all the karmic situations It has chosen for that lifetime! 

The question is, does our everyday self take charge to play that hand in such a way that it just creates more karmas for us?  Or do we let Soul whisper all the right moves to everyday self to play that hand with such incredible grace and dexterity that we move ourselves closer and closer to actual Conscious Union with our own Soul, our God Self?  That is the process of the spiritual path.

So what about the crumminess in our lives?  How do those experiences fit into this whole operation?

Well, it appears that at one time—in some lifetime, we were the “perp,” or the giver of crumminess.  Then in that same life or in consequent ones we become the receiver of that same, exact crumminess.  This is usually called being the “victim.”  And this is where we often get stuck believing that some God outside of us is being vengeful just for us.  “Why me?” we yell!

But here’s the real deal.  We, as our Soul set up our whole “game” of this particular string of karma so that we can get to know this situation inside out—both from the attitude of the perp to the crushing of the victim.  We need to “grok” (get) it in every detail.  It’s as though we store all of those dark experiences and awareness as lumps of coal in a closed shadowy room.  It hurts, we feel stuck and imprisoned.

Now, here’s the real key!  When we actually heal those old crumminesses, when we forgive, when we give up and let go of all those energetic tangles that bind us like poisonous, electric jelly fish tentacles—that changes all those very dark and confusing polarities!  The “windows” of that dark storeroom fling open to the sunlight, we are cleared and freed, we can see forever!  And the polarity of those dark experiences changes to Light so that now each of those horrid pieces of coal become as crystals and gems that can actually transmit powerful energy and awareness from Soul rather than block it.

When that happens, we retain all the knowledge that we gained about that situation from every viewpoint.  We understand it inside out.  Those transformed difficulties or lumps of coal become gems of wisdom and ability to serve and to heal in that specific arena that we have healed from.  It is a most magnificent transformation!

So, if your Soul is looking to establish really big Light and healing ability in you, then It sets you out on a really BIG path of perp and victim so that you can transform and heal into that huge Light in that area!  Once you have healed, there is no more animosity, no more blaming, no more “Why me?”

You get what an extraordinary gift You have given yourself!  And you are grateful for it with every fiber of your being!

Observe that process in yourself a while, talk to your own Soul and see what you get.  Karma is a magnificent process, so we might as well get on with it in the quickest way possible, don’t you think?

Of course, our fabulous tools for healing are sadhana (daily spiritual practice), all of our yogic and dharmic practices, as well as energy work, listening directly to our own Soul, and conscious re-training of our mind to recognize what is REALLY happening!  This is this grand healing process that step by step brings us to our own real Union with our God Self!

So, become your own Karma Detective and see what you find.  It could be mind-blowing as well as gratitude-producing!  At least you will love the results, even though the process may appear daunting!  Guaranteed!

 *  ”The Autobiography of Bhai Sahib Randhir Singh,” Translated by Trilochan Singh, Published by S. Balbir Singh, Secretary, Bhai Sahib Randhir Singh Trust, 23-G, Saraha Nagar, Ludhiana (Punjab), India.  Fourth edition: 2000.

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May 24,2016 & February 20, 2013

You know water-boarding?  It is torture, pure and simple.  In a controlled way, feelings of panic due to imminent loss of life are induced.  There is no way out.  It is painful, beyond enduring.  Torture leaves you without help or hope.  You become stranded, totally squashed, without a clue of how to bring yourself back to what was, or to move forwards.  You have lost complete connection to what you have known or hoped for!  Life as you have known it is shattered. 

Have you ever felt that?

Have you been so depleted of money that you mentally start looking for a bridge to live under?  Have you lost total support from, or love and connection with your best friend, spouse, partner, family or community to the point that you feel that your heart has been sliced out and you have been left to die?  Have you experienced utter rejection by the people and actions around you as perhaps when you have lost a job, experienced a break-up or a divorce, or your community has turned on you?

Now when any or all this happens, you actually have the free choice of how to handle it!  Would you be surprised to know that you don’t have to take the obvious train south into depression, panic and fear, even though it appears that all doors are bolted shut to you and that all light and life has been stolen from your personal universe?

Well, my Dears, this is actually the great law of Karma that pushes us over the edge into these apparently horrid circumstances.  This is the great law of evolution and LOVE!

Oh, yes.  That’s right.  It is the very love of the God of you, your Soul within that lines you up for your own personal experience of water-boarding!

The reason is that you are being challenged—actually being given the great opportunity to finally throw overboard any false ideas that you have total control over your life.  This is your great break to realize that security, love, and support on any level is absolutely present for you IF you are willing to “jump off the cliff” of your expectations and into the most loving arms of your own divine Soul, your God Self.  This is truly the chance of lifetimes.  And the more scary it is, the greater the leap into the arms of your own Beloved!

So, what this means is that if you take the opportunity to finally give total control of your life to your Soul, to the God of you, then you let go of your proverbial “ego” that has tried so hard to get all of its needs met, to be secure on its own terms, to be in control. 

You see, when we do our best to make the events of our life conform to what our mind and emotions want, we stick ourselves in the mire of our own ego so that we are subject to these complete breakdowns.  That’s because our ideas of security and happiness resulting purely from everyday’s self’s actions is basically an illusion that you can rely upon only to fall apart at some time.

And yet, it is Soul who wants to grab us to Its Infinite, cozy heart.  It wants to give us all that we need to drop our mental and emotional restrictions so that we can come into total, extraordinary and most kind and loving Union with It!

Now, this is not a fairy tale, or something taken from obscuring books.  This has been experienced by so many right here and right now, including myself.

As you use every spiritual technology to break that horrid trance of your mind and emotions such as Heart Breath, Kundalini Yoga, Mantra, Banis, calling on Guru Ram Das; as you use your strong—almost physical discipline to address your possessed and tortured mind and emotions, that is when you may find that the only thing left to do is to finally give up everything, and I mean EVERYTHING to your Soul, the God of you.  After all, there is nothing left to hold onto.  You find that nothing is yours!

That means giving your home, your car, your loved ones, your connections with community, income, personal influence and “good name,” your job and all else to the absolute care of your God Self without holding back an ounce.  When you do this, you no longer “own” your life, but you become a steward of your life.  You serve your life to serve your Soul.

You most humbly ask your Soul for all decisions. .  You ask questions, and check in with Soul to feel, hear or see with your intuition to validate that your guidance is True.  You consciously, with deliberation let go of worry and fear and let Soul eat that for dinner, no matter how huge the consequences may be.  You no longer hold what you want or what you think you need in your vice-grip.  You jump into pure neutral, using your Heart Breath/Shuniya because that is where Soul lives. 

When you make that mighty leap, Soul will truly give you what you need.  Just the act of turning over the experience of being stuck in your own powerful vexation, what we call being stuck in “ego” is the greatest step possible!  When you give over from your very depths, to that incredible neutrality or Soul Space, the most amazing freedom and peace fills in that vacuum.  It is an expansive, clear breeze sensation where impeccable, wisdom flows freely.  Your mind is not clutching, not trying to store up anything or control anything. 

Have heard of “living in the present”?  This is it!  This is the actual experience of living by Soul, of giving your life to Soul.

Now, you understand that this is no joke!  Once you give yourself up, there is no turning back.  Once you make that promise to the Almighty, you release all control over the direction, decisions and outcomes of your life—even if that means literally dying on the spot.  Your trust needs to allow every possibility, even the worst that can haunt your mind.  But you give it all up to Soul as you wait and watch for direction and outcome, as though you were actually an observer of your own life.  You most diligently follow Soul’s direction, that energetic expression from Soul at every nanosecond.  And you continuously draw yourself back into that trusting space, even though everything you have known from your past experiences, raw emotions, society’s direction, pure reason, etc. is telling you this is crazy!

But what happens is that as you relax into Soul, the chains of ideas and emotions that were tying you down are now dissolved so that Soul can “miraculously” carry you to the next step!  You may find that your old habitual fears were actually like an energetic glue that magnetized those blocks, walls, disconnections, loss of love and more to you.  You find that your needs are fulfilled with ease in ways that you never, ever could have predicted.  You may find that as you “flow” in this new path of simplicity and freedom you are led to situations that allow your creativity, love and prosperity to flourish with ease.  You just have to keep your eyes and acceptance open to discover them.

Your true natural self and authenticity rise to the surface to become your “operating platform.”  You trust any seemingly outrageous “scheme” or direction that Soul gives you without question, seeing it as an adventure as it unfolds.

You absolutely understand that this life is not YOUR life, but SOUL’s life, and that you are living for and as Soul.  You know from your very core that the real responsibility for your life resides with Soul and that you, as your “everyday self” is simply here to serve Soul’s Life through you.  Life becomes simple—very simple.  You are no longer abandoned, but truly, kindly connected to the most loving, caring “Parent” that knows perfectly how to train, guide and provide for you. 

This, Dear Ones is how you live your Destiny—that purpose for which you came to Earth in this lifetime.  Living unshakably from Soul, no matter what the challenge is how you evolve to true Union, which we call Yoga.  This is Who you truly are.  This is your very purpose!

As you do this, you may find yourself even becoming grateful for those torturous water-boarding experiences that gave you the great “kicks” to crack your shell of separation!  That is when you discover that “All is Love” after all!

Lots of Love,

Siri-Gian Kaur

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